2010 comes to an end...

I have a few hours to get this post completed before the new year.. I can't believe it's almost 2011, where has the time gone?? When I think back to what all this year has brought to my family, I find myself thinking... random word choice I know but to be honest our lives have been filled with so many ups and downs I have to stop and take a deep breath!! We were thrilled to find out my sister, Amber was pregnant at the beginning of the year, had a wonderful beach vacation, Ben finished LPN school, becoming pregnant with baby #2, papaw Grant battling cancer, Ben getting accepted to RN school, learning our baby's heart stopped beating for no reason, surgery, papaw Grant going to Heaven, the birth of my healthy beautiful niece Brynn, a get away to Christmas shop, topped off with spending CHRISTmas with both sides of our families!! Those are the highlights, the ones that had the biggest impact on my year. I've said many times and I'll say it again.. we've learned from each situation, the good and the bad!! I've had many people tell me, next year will be better... I know this is meant as an encouragement but my first thought (which I keep to myself) is, "yea that's what we were told in 2009 too when we lost Weslee." If you know me personally that wont surprise you.. my mouth filter doesn't function properly :) BUT that's my first thought, I do not really go into each year discouraged or wondering, what now?? It would be very easy to do so but I can't help but to be hopeful and look forward to each experience that lies ahead for us!! My #1 goal (wish) for 2011 would be to welcome a healthy baby into this world of our own or I'll settle with just being pregnant :) I know that wish is beyond our control, but without faith and thinking positively how could we keep going?? A goal that is however in my control is to lose weight.. Ben set his mind to losing weight back in August and to date he's lost 30lbs!! He started running every day and watching what he ate and how much. I must admit I was even working out for a while... (nothing like him though) but after we lost this baby we both slacked off. He has kept his weight off and looks great, me on the other hand.. I've probably got 10-15lbs of extra poundage that I need to lose. I wear scrubs every day which to some seems like a dream. Well, to be honest it really is!! The down side is when you go home, put on dress up clothes, nothing fits properly & you feel large and in charge!! To me, that's one of the worst feelings EVER!!!! So what do I do.. put on sweats :) my family thinks its hilarious how comfortable I am in sweats and that I don't mind sporting them in public. With all that being said, I am going to lose weight as my new years resolution!! I'm not one to care what the scale says, I want to be happy when I look in the mirror and put on clothes. Pretty original I know but that's my plan and I'm sticking to it!!

I love my life and wouldn't trade it for anything!! I have a family that loves me and my many flaws unconditionally and a support system that keeps me accountable!! I look forward to 2011 and the new memories that it will bring!!