why God...

Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning. Psalm 30:5

I am once again writing with a heavy heart.. not for myself tonight but for a close friend. This friend who I will keep anonymous for now has just been given some sad news regarding her unborn child. Like our situation, they went in with such excitement and anticipation to find out the sex of their baby. They too found out they were expecting a baby girl!! Their joy soon turned to question as the technician found some alarming characteristics their baby has. After waiting hours to talk to their doctor they were not given much more hope or reassurance. They are to meet with a specialist hopefully this week. Their doctor told them what she thought the baby had but didn't give them 100% news of the outcome. What's so crazy is that the day I found out about our last baby, she (my friend) had texted me that morning just to check on me and say she loved me.. I had no idea I was going to the doctor that day, they just worked me in. I too texted her Friday morning to let her know I loved her and that I was praying for her appointment.. It's a God thing that we have each other!! I've found myself wanting to call or text her every five minutes just to let her know I'm thinking about her.. I woke up this morning thinking, did that really happen?? Surely they're not really dealing with this, I must've had a bad dream?? I know you're reading this and I want you to know that you are not alone!! You are one of the strongest, strong willed yet loving people that I know. I can handle when bad things happen to me but when they happen to those I love it goes to a whole new level. I want to take your pain away.. You are so fortunate to be surrounded by a family that most long for!! I pray you never once question if this bad news was a result of something you did.. I beat myself up for months after losing Weslee until I finally had a peace that there is no known cause for these disorders. Like my dad says, they call it practicing medicine for a reason!! You will always question/wonder what went wrong.. that question gets less and less over time.. I know first hand nothing anyone can say makes the situation any easier.. but it did help to know that I was being prayed for and thought about by so many. The news of your baby has not yet gone public and we do not have a definitive diagnosis. My prayer is that you guys have peace and an understanding after meeting with the specialist. I pray that the doctor has a tender heart and answers your many questions thoroughly. I am here for you through the good and the bad, like I told you last night we can handle anything thrown our way!! The unknown of what's next is enough to drive you crazy... you (and your honey) will get through this and be stronger people because of it!! We are here for you every step of the way.. I hope you know I am one phone call away and am literally willing to hold your hand through each appointment and decision you will have to make. If I've learned anything over the past few years it's that God works in mysterious ways.. good or bad news you have a princess in your belly that was conceived in love and is your daughter!! You are a mommy and will be a dang good one :) I love you, your baby, your other half, and your family like my own!! This journey may be bumpy but we're on it together and will get through it with faith, frustration, tears, laughter, & love!!

from one mommy to another, I love you friend!!

**please take a minute to pray for my friend, their baby girl, family, and the decisions they will have to face...