Thank you all...

Thank you for your encouraging comments and prayers, Ben and I appreciate them more than you know!! We both went back to work this week and did well considering.. we're trying to get back to life as "normal." We've been asked many questions following the loss of this baby but the main one I've received is, "was this the first time you were to hear the heartbeat?" We've known we were pregnant since very early on.. we had been seeing and hearing the baby's heartbeat since week 5. As of my 12 week (12 w, 6 d) appointment the baby was moving like crazy with a heartbeat in the 170's!! So you can imagine the shock by all when I went in around what I thought was 13-14 weeks to see nothing.. (When a baby's heart stops beating it shrinks in size which was why I measured 12 weeks, 4 days at that appointment.) There is no correlation between what happened with Weslee and this baby.. for whatever reason this baby's heart just stopped beating?? After surgery the doctor was very reassuring to my family that everything looked perfect!! Meaning, everything was attached properly.. that fact is a positive but it's also very puzzling?! We were encouraged to start trying right away, that is if and when we're ready.. I keep telling myself how fortunate we are that we could even get pregnant.. for a while we were starting to wonder. We're trying not to let the devil get the best of us and stay positive!! We're relatively young, healthy, and have no known predisposed risks.. like our doctor put it, we just had some bad luck?! I was reminded yesterday by a friend that has lost an infant that these babies were never ours!! Such a strong point, I do believe this but I'm still human and am extremely selfish in wanting these precious gifts!! Thank you again for your continued prayers and I'll be updating with what God is doing in our lives...