Picture Perfect

I've had a hard time loading these pictures... to do so, we had to cut them apart and scan them.. I had a fear that something might happen to them!! Ben and I will cherish these sweet, innocent photos forever!! These are the pictures of her @ 20 weeks.. on this day we found out she was a girl and were surprised and elated!! We also found out she was anencephalic and we would never be able to bring her home...
The Perinatal Specialist we were sent to (we don't feel comfortable using his name without his permission) labeled all the pictures for us, he was such a patient and understanding doctor!! This picture it looks like she's sucking her thumb, taking after her mommy!!

SURPRISE, I'm a girl... Weslee Faith Mizell to be exact!!

Precious foot!!

This is my all time favorite ultrasound picture...... I smile every time I see it!!!

Ben and I have pictures from after Weslee was born... they're the sweetest, most beautiful pictures we've ever seen!! (of course we're partial) We are also very protective and are going to be very selective on what we put on here... It's amazing what a 20 week old baby looks like, what our daughter looked like!! Though she only weighed 6.4 oz and was 8 inches long she stole our hearts and was perfect!! We talk daily about who's holding her in Heaven... his mama Jean, my granny Cole, his uncle Charles... I could go on and on!!

I have my first doctors appointment tomorrow since delivering Weslee.. I pray that everything is going as planned and guidance for the future. We've been blessed with wonderful, Christian doctors who have held our hands every step of the way...

We find something good out of this situation daily... I will admit, some days we have to search...

I must close with something about Ben..... I noticed in the hospital he went and washed his hands before he held Weslee, every time!! Although it was only her physical body with us he treated her like a Princess!! Ben and I are closer than we've ever been.. he's been right beside me every step of the way, holding my hand, letting me vent, encouraging me, and loving me unconditionally!!

I can't say it enough, WE ARE SO BLESSED!!

Happy 25th Birthday to Sarah!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEE!!

My birthday was actually on November 7, I'm a little late with the pictures... Ben's family and my family got together and ate @ Cock of the Walk, one of my favorites!!! Mary Ann (my MIL) with Laci and Megan

me and my girls!!

My best friend, sister, & Weslee's Auntie Am!!

Laci and her BFF, Mary Ann

My mom and Ben

Trent & Katherine Crow - my awesome SIL & BIL

a mini version of me.....

My biggest fans!!

Weslee's parents!!

All of these people mean so much to me, I am truly blessed with an amazing family and support system!! I can honestly say, these people are my best friends!!

**for some reason we did not get a picture of my FIL, Dr. Phil (as the girls call him) He too is an amazing man!! My dad also had some prior duties @ the church on this night... don't worry, he had a ton of leftovers!!

Holiday Season

Since it's November 1, I decided it was time to get down the CHRISTmas decor!! Oh how I love the Holiday season, it's always been my favorite time of year!! Ben just shakes his head @ me, but I'm sure he's secretly excited too!! Obviously this year will be tougher than most... although Weslee would not of been here yet she sure would of had a lot of gifts!! Ben and I talk about her and look @ her pictures often... We know first hand now why people think their child is the smartest, cutest, etc. We're pretty partial to our daughter, even just getting to hold her physical body. We're so thankful for that special time we had with her and our family, memories we'll cherish forever!!

I went to church this morning, a little unsure of how well I could compose myself... it was a remarkable service and God truly blessed me!! It amazes me how instead of being bitter, jealous, angry, I am thankful, blessed, & so truly grateful for all that I have!! When I cry they're tears of joy, Ben and I can't wait to see our daughter again in Heaven!!!!!

This weekend we purchased a special tree that is going to be Weslee's tree!! It's a small white tree with pink and purple ribbon and pink balls!! I was certain we were having a boy so I'm going all out with pink!! It's already decorated and setting on a table when you walk in the front door!! Our plan is to add ornaments to it yearly... she'll always be our first born!!

Thank you for your continued prayers, support, comments, etc.. Ben and I feel how much we are loved!!

Weslee Faith

Ben and I are still taking it one day at a time, getting back into our normal routines.. I was fortunate enough to be able to stay home this week. My mom was also granted the week off so it's been wonderful being surrounded by family. We've been flowered with prayers, cards, meals, and so much more!!

I know people are interested in our daughter and some specific details about our situation... some things I can openly talk about, others will take time.. Weslee's specific condition is known as Anencephaly. So many people have been asking, so please feel free to look it up. **there are some pictures of other cases so please be prepared

Weslee Faith Mizell was stillborn at 20 weeks gestation.. On 10-24-09 @ 11:07am her physical body came into this world.. she weighed 6.4oz and was 8in long. What's amazing is that we could tell she already looked like her daddy... she had his nose and toes!! I mentioned earlier that she had my long legs, they were very muscular!! My sister and Weslee's Auntie Am got the pleasure of picking out her clothes and dressing her.. how special that was!! The hospital let us bring home her outfit(s) and precious hat(s) she wore!! Ben and I beam every time we talk about our daughter, we're so proud!!

We were surrounded by nurses, CRNA's, and doctors that went above and beyond for us!! Ben and I couldn't of had a better experience; considering the circumstances.. We've felt Gods hand in every angle of this situation. Although we do not understand why this has happened, we trust in his word and know we will dance with our daughter again in HEAVEN!!

Thank you all again for your continued prayers, kind words, cards, love, and support!!

Every day's a good day, some days are just better than others!!

Happy Birthday Weslee Faith Mizell

Our daughter, Weslee Faith Mizell went to be with Jesus on 10-24-09 @ 11:07am

Words cannot describe the emotional roller coaster we've been through since finding out our daughter would never live on this earth... throughout it all we've had an indescribable peace!! I know it's because of God and your prayers that have kept us above water!! We're so thankful to each one of you!!!

We've been surrounded by family and friends and that always helps!! Each day comes with a new emotion..

We will share more about our story in time... right now we're taking it one day @ a time and others a minute @ a time.

I wanted to share Weslee's birthday and that we are all doing well and very thankful!!

I must share that even @ 20 weeks she looked like her daddy and had long muscular legs like her mom!!

We're so proud!!

Ben & Sarah

Baby M has a name!!!

We've decided to name our daughter Weslee Faith Mizell... Faith is only appropriate @ a time like this, Weslee of course is after my brother. We are eager for our appointment with the specialist today @ 2:30. We're hoping and praying for answers and guidance as to what our next move should be... We are so encouraged by the love and support you've already shown!!

Please also take time to pray for the Nail family, they are dealing with a sick daughter and I can't imagine what they're going through..

So many hurts it seems, but we serve a great God and I am @ peace with that!!

With so much love,
Sarah & Weslee!! (oh how I love saying her name)

20 week OB visit

Dear friends and family,
Today Sarah and I found out that we are going to have a baby girl, and couldn’t be more excited!! But with all of this enjoyment, we have found out some unfortunate news about our daughter. During our routine 20-week ultrasound with the doctor, we were told that our baby has an extremely rare developmental disorder where the skull doesn’t form around the brain. Therefore, she will not be able to survive past birth if she for some reason makes it that far. We are going to see a high-risk OB specialist tomorrow to learn a little more about this condition and discuss our current options. It is very hard for us to hear the news, especially after seeing her heartbeat and kicking her legs around like crazy!! We are coming to grips slowly, but surely, with the reality that we are now faced with and ask that everyone keep our family in your thoughts and prayers. It is going to be a rough and bumpy road ahead of us, but whenever the time comes for us to meet our baby girl we’ll be eagerly waiting... We decided along time ago to let go and let God; now more than ever!!
with love, Ben and Sarah

**please feel free to ask us any specific questions