Saturday, February 5, 2011


Confused as to the title of this post??

That's how I felt when Ben handed me the mail earlier this week and there was a packet addressed to me with those letters on the front. As I opened the packet I soon realized what those letters stood for: National Birth Defects Prevention Study. WHAT?? After much thought and letting the packet sit on the coffee table I've come to realize that it's not a bad thing. I must admit, I was immediately offended when I realized what the packet was about. How could someone send this to me knowing what we went through. The last thing I want to do is think back on our experience and use the words "birth defect." When we think of Weslee we think of our daughter who was perfect in so many ways!! I've picked the packet up here and there reading little bits at a time.. It really is a good thing they're trying to do. They do not know what causes so many birth defects and anencephaly is one of those. I don't know if having an answer to why this happens would of helped or not but if they can figure out how to prevent it I'm all for it!!

There's still not a day that I don't think about our daughter and the "what ifs".. Ben and I would give anything to have our daughter here with us!! In that same breath though we know she is in Heaven surrounded by perfection!!

We will forever have reminders of our Weslee and the short time we had with her!!

1 comment:

Two Girls and a Guy! said...

Always thinking about you and praying for you! I know its not easy for a constant reminder. Honestly Weslee has helped me not to worry about things that are out of my control(our) control with this pregnancy. I have worried and worried b/c of all the things I come across and people not having healthy babies and so on. But I always think of you and think " I cannot worry about this b/c God has given us our children but they are HIS first" NO matter WHERE they are ( here on earth or in heaven with the Lord) they are our children and HIS will reigns supreme over anything we have control of! I love you very much and am always thinking of you and about little Weslee! I am also glad there are people out there who care enough and are smart enough to research these things so we can provide some glimpse into medical conditions whether birth defects, genetics, or any other diseases.